Case Study - 32 year old woman

During a session, clients begin to feel a presence attached to them. In other words, they perceive an autonomous consciousness, added to their own and separate from it, and operating within or around them. Most clients are unaware of that presence before undergoing the sourcing or exploration process. However, once identified through sourcing work, the presence often feels familiar to them. They suddenly realise that they already knew about it subconsciously.

A certain percentage of clients were consciously aware of the presence long before undergoing the process, but were unable to talk about it with friends or therapists, for fear of being regarded as insane, or just because it sounded peculiar and did not fit in with any of their usual mental concepts.

Clients often perceive the presence as separate from themselves. They can feel their own presence plus another presence, which is attached to them but distinct from them. They describe it in the following terms: "something foreign", "it doesn't belong to me", "it isn't part of me", "it is a parasite", "it hasn't always been with me", "it was added", "it got attached to me at a particular moment in time" (even if that time was long ago), "it feels wrong", "it shouldn't be there".

Case study Thirty-two year old woman, secretary.

What can you perceive? -It's red, it's angry. It's as if I've been taken over. It's something that I've been fighting all my life. It inspires hatred. It's madness, but not madness from the body. Maybe it's my dark side. But it does not feel like me.

When did you feel it for the first time? -Now, actually. But I have always known it was there. [The client is crying, with her fists clenched.] I feel that it could make me kill, and I mean it. It fills up my body with hatred, it's sheer destruction.

In most cases, clients come to identify a shape associated with the presence. These shapes vary from simple shadows to human shapes and a wide range of monstrous forms. Even though clients may not always verbalise it clearly, they do perceive the shape as the vehicle of the presence, just as our physical body can be regarded as the vehicle of our consciousness.

The identification of the shape is often gradual. For instance, in the beginning of the session the client may just see a blurry cloud, and only gradually perceive more and more details until the full shape is revealed. Once fully identified, the shape usually remains roughly the same throughout the exploration process, until the clearing. However, the size may vary slightly. In particular, certain emotions or foods tend to make the entity temporarily bigger.

Case study: Twenty Nine year old woman, air hostess

She suffered from fatigue without any reason, depression and lack of motivation. At the beginning of the IST session, the client perceived a shadow in her left iliac area.

Can any emotion be related to it? -It just feels dead. Cold. There's nothing really. It just likes to be left alone.

Why? -It likes the dark. Like in a cave. It likes to be still and to draw things into itself.

How big is it? -You mean that black thing... [The client indicates an area from mid-thigh to her breast, on the left side of her body.]

Have you seen it before? -No.

What does it want? -It just wants to be there. It takes little bits of my energy. It sucks energy all the time. Just little bits. Just what's necessary.

Could it be that there are some foods you eat that it enjoys?-Cheese. And tomatoes. Bread.

What happens to it when you have these foods? -It gets stronger. And my energy gets a bit weaker.

What emotions of yours does it enjoy? -Negativity. It's like a pattern of negativity. Empty life type of thing. Depression. It likes my husband. My husband feeds it. He makes it stronger.